A few weeks ago I had the privilege of going on HTB's Worship Pastor Retreat at Malshanger in Basingstoke. It was a truly great time - Monday to Thursday with 19 other (musical) worship leaders from around the world (and others staffing it) in a country house on a beautiful estate AND full English breakfast every morning! (I allowed myself some "holiday eating" btw :-D).
It was run by Tim Hughes and Al Gordon but was excellent nonetheless, heh, heh ;-)
Our time was very balanced, split between worshiping*, teaching, discussion, praying, waiting on Him, football outside, watching a film, walking, chatting, eating, explaining cricket to the Americans...explaining it again...and again...giving up...explaining custard**...
Anyway, my "moment" came when we'd been praying and waiting and I stood forward for breakthrough. I'd felt a glass ceiling of some sort but didn't know what it was. Some prayed for me for a time and said a couple of (good!) things over me, then I felt Jesus was asking me if I was ashamed of Him? Ashamed of Him?? No way!! Am I?? Am I? The thought broke my heart and I was in tears. Part of me obviously was, and this came as a real surprise to me. He dealt with something right there and I feel different now.
And, just this week I had a meeting with a friend in Starbuck's, was telling him about this and the tears came again, which was another surprise! (I don't know what they thought Neil had said to me...??) So this is clearly not over, but very exciting, bring it on!
And that's why I'm going to get "Jesus" tattooed on my arm, I'm just choosing the font...watch this space!
* I use the word "worship" here in it's musical sense, worship is, in reality, "our occupation with God Himself, with the greatness of His being." and not confined to song!
** On seeing one of us pouring custard on sponge pudding: "Erm, why are you putting pudding on your cake?"
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Are you ready for the pain?...
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